Mary was in 200 level obviously not the most beautiful girl in class in fact not on the top list but she was pretty.
Her dressing was always modest and simple, from her hairstyle to her makeup.
Her class had about like five different cliques where all the beautiful girls joined.
She lived a modest and simple life.
She was quite brilliant and her lowest grade as at then was a credit.
A part of her really wanted to feel among the high class but she didn't have the looks nor the money.
She longed for acceptance from the so called high and mighty in a class but she didn't get.
She couldn't afford to buy the latest clothes nor the latest weaves.
She had a healthy circle of friends but she wanted more.
She wanted to know if she was truly beautiful.
She wanted to know if she was truly attractive.
Of course, few boys asked her out but they didn't fall into the class of those she wanted.
One day, she was travelling home, there was scarcity of vehicles and a fine SUV stopped and offered her a lift. The young man looked harmless and she obliged. A part of her was happy that a " big man " found her attractive.
Few months later they started dating. This young man Henry was a youth corper and in his late twenties. Mary was 19 years as at then.
Of course few things started changing about her, her dress sense, her make up , her choice of words even her feeding habit , since
Henry was giving her an average of 10,000 naira per week and he sorted out most of her pressing bills.
She got the certification that she has longed for that she was beautiful.
She didn't change her circle of friends as she preferred being the "local champion" within her regular friends than compete with the rich kids and those that have sugar daddies.
Months went by and she realised that she was loosing herself, she was loosing her pride , her dignity.
Henry introduced her into pre marital sex and on each occasion she felt lost.
Henry was always assuring her that she was beautiful in and out and he always encouraged to be the best but everyday she felt lost.
She felt like she wasn't where she wanted to.
So many times she has tried to call it quit with him but she feels a measure security having him around.
A day to Henry's passing out ceremony, Mary went over to his place and he reassured her of his love for her. They both talked about their dreams , hopes and aspirations.
Henry called her few weeks later to tell her that he got a good job based on his father's influence.
Days upon days, the gap between them broadened and Mary kept on making different excuses for him.
Exactly five months after he was posted to come and work around the area of her school and things went back to normal between them.
But Mary became very uncomfortable with the premarital sex life she was living. She called him to call it off and her reasons were as follows
1. I can't please man and displease God
2. I can't continue living in Sin and say grace should abound
3. I know my worth and if you truly love me, you will wait.
4. If you honour me you will honour my body.
After the call, she broke down in tears and she thought of how reckless she lived within the past 18 months.
She cried herself to sleep and she had a dream that restored her faith and hope and she held on to the old rugged cross. Laid down her burdens and she felt light.
She woke up to the news that Henry has been transferred to Ghana branch. She choose the path of celibacy and God honoured her with good grades, a nice job after her youth service , a good home and beautiful children.
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